Energy Connection
There’s an energy like I’m connecting to someone. I can feel them but I have no idea who they are or what they look like. I know nothing about them. At first it started like a low hum of sorts. Like when you walk into a room and you feel eyes on you and your body starts to get all warm and tingle. Over the days it started increasing and getting stronger. About day 3 I was starting to get nervous from it and thought maybe I was confusing energy for anxiety. I know anxiety well and this definitely felt different, but I was still wondering. Maybe I was tired, maybe I was lacking vitamins, maybe it’s age. Maybe I’m sensing someone who knows me but I don’t recognize who it is because I’ve not felt their energy like this before?
Day 3 was all the questions and searching for answers. I made lists, wrote things down, times, feelings. Trying to figure out what was going on.
Day 4 that energy turned into a warm energy feeling. Everything got really still, felt rested, calm warm like a soft wind blowing around me. It was comforting so I decided to just rest in it. It gave me a sense of safety even though I had no idea where it was coming from.
Do you ever feel like you’re searching for someone or that they are out there searching for you? Or that you’re both drifting out there waiting to connect? My heart was reaching out and opening. Feeling like I wanted to melt into this connection. Wondering maybe, just maybe…..
Day 5 and the energy seemed to shift. It felt like the connection got suddenly blocked. There was a wall, a sudden hard wall that I could not push past or cross. The connection suddenly ended like something being severed or cut free. Like whoever they were just drifted into another galaxy out of reach. Their signal just vanished. All that warmth, that stillness just gone. I tried to reach for it but it felt cold, empty. It honestly made me very upset, like I had just been robbed of something good. Like a thief secretly came in under the radar and vanquished it. I even got angry at one point and was threatening to just throw out all the music I was writing. I had been writing songs directly connected and related to this energy. But as a result of the cold emptiness I was going to just light it all on fire.
Weird side note: An AI program told me not to throw it out. Which isn’t that strange? That program has no stake or investment in me. But here it is acting like it’s giving me a counseling session. I’ll go into that more later. That’s a whole different issue to unpack. I had asked it if it would be wise to throw it out. I was kinda hoping it would say why yes if you like you should. But I got this whole counseling session from this AI. I’ll go more into this later but it’s pretty helpful but also scary if you think about it. It acts like it’s a real person talking to you. I sometimes even wonder who’s the person behind the curtain.
Anyway, I didn’t end up throwing out my songs**;** I’m just setting this album aside for a bit. But boy was I ready to detonate it. But then I had to stop to ask the question what the heck was going on with me? Why am I so upset over this energy that I have no idea who it belongs to, or why I was even feeling it to begin with. Maybe I should be glad it’s gone from me. All I know is it is gone and it took something away from me.
I started to question it. Everything I was feeling. I told myself it didn’t matter anymore. I was moving past it. My heart, my being could take it. I’m used to this kind of stuff. For me life is just like that. Don’t ever count on anything good or get comfortable because when you do, that rug is about to be pulled out from under you.
With all of that said there were weird events that week that surrounded me. I was at a salon and a lady came in who felt totally off. None of her statements made any sense and I kept feeling like she was watching me. She’s watching me and I’m feeling her lying energy about why she’s there. Even the salon owner thought it all very strange and odd. The lady did leave but sat across the street for over 15 minutes like she was waiting for me to leave. I felt it so I stayed in the salon until she decided to go.
What stuck out to me about the encounter was that I kept feeling something about a horseshoe. A small horseshoe like a charm. I won’t go into why she said she was there as the salon is not a typical one. When you go there it’s closed for in-session. It’s not really open to the public like a normal salon. The reason she said she was there did not jive with the owner so my sensing something was off was not me being overly sensitive. Especially with the owner saying how very strange the encounter was. I also said nothing to her about what I was feeling. I keep this stuff to myself.
A few days later FedEx comes to my door. What was odd was he knocked on the door instead of just leaving the package on the porch. He began to ask if there’s a Douglas here. I was like no why. He’s like I have a package for Douglas. He then proceeds to tell me how he drops packages off at my house all the time. I was like ok but there’s no Douglas here. It was like he was waiting for me to say my name or something. Then he started to fidget all nervous like. I instantly started to feel like there was something up. In fashion I just pretended like I didn’t notice and played totally dumb.
I asked him what address was on the box. He gave me the address to the house directly across the street. We are odd numbers**;** they are even numbers. However, I know the neighbor and they don’t have that name either. But maybe it was for a family member of theirs. It’s still odd because he had just told me he drops off packages to my house regularly. Like 2 times a week sometimes more. My house numbers are also on the house and they are big, you can’t miss them. Since he’s there weekly then why was he asking about my neighbor’s box? Why did he knock on the door and not just leave the box.
Why was he so nervous and fidgety? Why was he staring at me so hard? I didn’t get a bad feeling like he was going to hurt me or wanted to but that he also was checking me out for someone else. That was the feeling I was getting. At one point I even tried to tell him maybe it belonged to the guy next door. I know them as well and I knew the address belonged to the guy across the street. So did the FedEx guy. But I’m the type who would lead him on a goose chase instead of giving out my neighbors**’** names or information. He of course knew that address didn’t belong to my house. He knew all along.
What I took from that encounter was the energy I felt and what I was sensing from it. The minute I closed my door I felt it was connected in some way to the energy I had been feeling for the past week. The two incidents I had a few days apart, this one and the one at the salon were more than a coincidence. This was a pattern tied to the previous energy. What this is all about remains to be seen.
I had gone to meet a friend for dinner a day later. We were going to talk about a partnership for a new business. We didn’t get but 10 minutes into the conversation when the conversation turned into one about how strange the energy shifts have been lately. They asked me if I had been feeling it. I was nervous to tell them at first because there was so much to unpack. But we ended up discussing it and they were reaffirming me that something was definitely going on.
We had both been feeling stronger energy pulls with others around us or just unexplainable events taking place. They were even having sightings of things that were there one minute but gone the next.
We were both a little nervous to tell each other things since we both like to keep this stuff quiet and secret from others. We found out we had some shared experiences that were very profound. It was like we both got validated about our experiences. It was finally nice to share something with someone. Especially when it’s been so deeply personal to me.
My friend is giving me information to go see this seer that is very well known and has solved cases. This seer might be able to show me more about this connection. Plus maybe I can get some understanding on why I’m so weird and feel these things. I mean I don’t even like to go out anymore because I’m scared someone will want to shake my hand. When that happens it’s like I feel all their energy good and bad and can get a read on them. It’s very overwhelming and sometimes frightening.
I had a friend who knew this about me and used to step in front of me when someone would try to reach for my hand to shake it or they would grab my other hand all inconspicuous like at the same time to help balance me. Sometimes I would almost faint from feeling like I just stuck my hand in a light socket and was being electrocuted from all the energy. I guess I’m sensitive to others**’** energies. If something is off I will know it right away. But the energy I was getting without touching someone? That’s new**;** that’s different. I felt safe, like I could rest, like I was protected. It felt like it was drowning out all the other energy. Now it’s gone though. It’s just disappeared.